What do I want to do?

So, I’m getting older. Two things have driven me most of my adult life. Anxiety and my career. Really it was more the anxiety that drove everything and gave itself focus on my career. Which is pretty sad really. If my anxiety had been worse I may now be Bruce Wayne and not the low level technical consultant I am. Anxiety left little time for me to think about who I am and what I want to do. My career has settled into a very comfortable place with great work life balance. I’ve found myself in a place where I have the unique thought, (to me) what do I like to do? What am I interested in? It may sound strange, but the low level of anxiety I’ve had my whole life kept me on the edge. There wasn’t a lot of enjoyment in life. I wasn’t happy, I was sometimes sad and generally always flat lined. Now that the anxiety and depression are managed I have this image of the person I’ve always wanted to be. Now I feel I have the freedom to be that person. There have been a few things I’ve put off for sometime that I’m going to list here.

  • Learn to golf
  • Focus on mind body health
  • Rock climb
  • Bike
  • Train for another half marathon
  • Write a book
  • Learn to fish
  • Archery
  • Photograhy
  • Crossfit


This is not just a list of things I may do in my spare time. These are things that will challenge me. As my job is comfortable, I’m no longer really looking for the next big step in my career. I’m comfortable where I am and have no desire to get to the next level. I hope these activities will help me channel and focus that energy that will otherwise fester. This post is really about accountability. So if you like to golf or rock climb, give me a call.

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